A Week Goes By With Little Change

I weighed in at 196.8 this morning. I hit 196 for the first time this past Saturday, and have weighed in at 197 most days in between. that puts me at 57 pounds down.

The Lose It! app gives me lots of statistics to look at, though I rarely do. Today I decided to dig through some numbers. I've eaten high in my calories the last few months which would obviously explain a lot of the slow down in loss. on the flip side of that I'm averaging right at, or just below 1400 calories. It's not like I'm eating an absurd amount. My daily calorie "goal" right now is 1248... that's borderline bottomed out. If I go over by 50-100 calories I don't get worked up, but its reaching a point of not being able to drop lower. I've been aware of hunger lately. I get really irrational when I get hungry. I don't make good choices. All the readings say that I'll need to up my exercise in order to create a calorie deficit without dropping below 1200 calories. Exercise is still my biggest struggle. I've felt tired a lot lately. Just dragging. I don't have the energy I had a month or two ago. Am I depressed? Lazy? Not eating enough? Vitamin deficient? I have no clue... I'm strongly considering going to the doctor to ask for help. But then again exercise is supposed to give you energy and help create a calorie deficit. Maybe a need to focus on exercise.

I've also slipped on my sugar and sweets. I don't crave much, but I was regularly allowing myself chocolate indulgences. (About an ounce of dark chocolate a day.) Not a huge calorie eater, but I can eat more nutritious food, and avoid the sugar/fat if I start curbing that a little.

Overall, I'm still losing. Even on my "bad" days/weeks I'm maintaining. I feel comfortable that I'm living a sustainable diet. I'm not sure I'm living a sustainable lifestyle though. I'm always busy, rushed, and obligated. I feel like the last year I've been spread much too thin. I need to cut back. I need to focus. I need to do fewer things and do them better. I've never successfully balanced work/life. Perhaps I should start trying harder. I'm not sure what that looks like though...